How is your life going? Any new developments? I’ve been moving along with many changes; the California house sold, I bought a house in Texas, going on dates, getting Adelia lots of support, having potlucks and pool parties…it feels like life is flourishing. As the pandemic is winding down, I find myself grateful for all that has happened to bring myself, my daughter, and our academy to where it is now.
This past week I had a date with a recently retired San Antonio Police Sargent. He asked about how we had come to be here in Texas; I told the story of our exodus for California, all the dangers we faced, and the long drive out to a place where I knew no one, with the intention and hope of a better life.
He gazed at me wide-eyed and spoke to me from his military/police authority, and declared me one of the most courageous women he knew. That deeply touched my heart. He had as well served in the military and seen combat. And to him, I replied, I can’t say I felt courageous; at times, I felt so overwhelmed, but there were urgent things to deal with, and I was the one to do them. He smiled and looked down, saying, yes, I know you had no choice; in your mind, it was what must be done. But that is courage; that is what courage looks like. That is the nature of courage, to rise to the occasion and bring your best even when it feels like it is more than you can do.
As I heard in his voice the acknowledgment that, of course, at any point, I could have given up. Fleeing from the fires, battling the school with attorneys for the abuse my child suffered, leaving a tyrannical government with little but five suitcases and hope for a better life. Driving to Texas, not knowing where we would live, how we would manage, just having faith and driving till I heard God say rest. Stop here for now.
He said he loved his life; he had no drama. He went on to say how he paired down lives in an RV and Golfs 5 days a week. He lived his life protecting others, fighting battles, and in a swirl of drama; his big win is to play golf, which he has done for 3 years. As I heard him speak, he told me he had divorced his last wife because she wanted kids, and he didn’t want the complication of little ones. How everything in his life was about simply existing. I imagine he had dreamed of this life for a long time, and now he had it. “fancy-free lifestyle,” he said.
I choose to live full-on, passionately, and with drama if the circumstances require it because I can. I live to love and to serve humankind. That is not something I will ever retire from.
One last thought on this gentleman; He took one look at me and said, ” Well, I am a lot older than you. That was before we had a conversation, but actually, he was only 13 months older. Who we are in life and what we tell ourselves is what life will then give us back. I do not believe in aging, and I believe that we are meant to contribute and live hundreds of years with all my heart. I am excited about our 10-year commission, the work we have already completed in the realm of purity and truth, and the months and years to come.
Life is a daring adventure or nothing at all!
