The direction our marathon took was different than what we have always done in the past. Instead of making a list of all the ways we intended God to protect us and what we care about, God took us down another path of clearing.
I heard early in the call the word we were to think about was repent, repentance, and although we could and did raise the bar dramatically, getting a much higher level of God protection, God wanted us to understand that He did not remove protection – we did, with actions in previous days and previous lives, both when we were in a body and between incarnations.
In my mind, front and center was the love I have for my children, but how over time, each child except Henry has pulled away. My adult children formed a lock of a kind to block me from seeing them, sharing in their life, and although I see a tiny opening with my youngest birth child, my son, my role as mother and mother protector has been minimal for a very long time.
With my eight-year-old, who swears, yells, hits, and screams at me, there are few moments that I can feel active love flowing. She has thrown many wedges between herself and my love, which ultimately provide unending protection.
I felt we were to sing, praise God, and clear for the 5 glorious hours together, and we were to be grateful for the protection flowing back to us. We started at less than 3% God protection, and many ended the day with 50–70%.
Some asked, “How many hours of pumping to get to 100% God protection?” But the thing is, God is an omnipotent being – we cannot force, by pumping and intention, make God do anything. Indeed, the next step was to actively love God and get involved with His creation.
In time there will be more for us. For now, we are so very, very much better than prior to the marathon.
