Have you ever been overtaken by emotion, which started a cascade of emotions that left you no longer in the driver’s seat of your actions and reactions? I certainly have, and whew, it just doesn’t feel great.
Trauma comes in many forms
A month back, I lost a friend. It was so hard for me; I knew what was happening but could not stop it. She is not a mom, does not understand my loyalty and commitment to what sometimes appears from the outside as an impossible situation with my daughter. She has told me to duck tape her mouth shut, give her away, all kinds of stuff because, in her heart, she can’t comprehend why I would be loyal to a child that has many issues, some harmful to me. She was out in Texas, literally in the next town (a California resident), and decided not to see us/me. I had been given a beautiful invitation to stay in our guest room, but she had somehow at that moment cut me loose as a friend. When I saw her Facebook post saying she was in the next town over, my heart sank; I felt overtaken with dread and experienced brain flooding. I did not stay in that place long though, I called out to God and asked that He take the pain and flood of emotions from me, and rapidly I was calm again. From past times I would have hung out in the trauma of loss much longer and lived with twisted up emotions. Still, this time I had the notion, if she isn’t able to ride through challenges I am going through and thinks it’s better to sever a limb rather than take the time slowly to understand and resolve issues, she is not a good friend for this time in my life.
The flooding and sinking feeling, though, came from past trauma. Loss of friendship, loss of love coming both from this and past lives. Trauma lives on the spiral and can be brought up at any moment, and its intensity can feel 100x worse than the present situation is calling for.
So just about a week ago, I went into Adelia’s school to find the reception person wearing a mask. She went on to tell me she wanted to be extra safe, so she was not going to recycle air from moms who have kids in high school where there have been some covid outbreaks. Say what??? She believed she was helping everyone by not recycling possibly contaminated breath. This is not directly from any parents who had covid, or children with covid, but just in case she had breathed the air of a parent who had dropped off a kid at their school where she might have breathed air from someone who might have had covid and then brought what she had breathed back into the preschool.
After she talked about her wanting to be so careful for about 5 minutes, bragging on her thoughtfulness, I informed her gently; I have a very different idea about masks. I chose this school partly because my daughter would get to see the faces of the adults around her. I did not believe, and science has proven that masks are not effective with the spread of a virus, only bacteria. Great news, she has no mask on this week, thank goodness. Thank goodness.
But the masking with all its hype and fear really does trigger an emotional response from me. I want to tell people to stop being sheep and believing the hype. It’s not true! I was very kind, and I have seen some of the other teachers wear masks. I’ve just said, are you sick? We love to see your beautiful face and leave it at that.
Trauma can run deep, be intense, and can run a rickshaw on your serenity and joy. When you experience trauma, you lose your strong connection with God, your miraculous system, and the joy field, just to name a few side effects. In addition, your nervous system may be wonky, or you may experience digestive disorders. When trauma is triggered, it is NOT FUN.
I test more than 80% of folks who are experiencing traumas fairly regularly right at the moment. Because it is such a big issue, I pulled together an important clearing class that deeply releases the traumas stimulated from the massive triggering happening with this plan – demic.
The joy of this work is that it helps with every type of trauma. For example, I worked with Bill, a very successful businessman. His work was a fascinating stem cell product used in burn recovery. Although he had served in the VietNam war, years later, a successful man, and loving grandfather, PTSD masked all his feelings. He had a flat affect, which he compensated for by being an extremely kind person. Bill attended our Miraculous Living Retreat (we have a live retreat coming up at the end of November!) And didn’t know what was possible but just went for it.
A week after the retreat, he had a chance to spend time with his grandkids and Disneyland. For the first time in 40 years, Bill was feeling Joy! It was an absolute thrill for me to receive his call and hear that he could feel his grandkids, could share joy; it was like he had been released from prison.
We currently have a new Trauma Triggers class especially addressing the traumas stimulated from the past 18 months of challenges. I hope you will join me as we permanently clear the sources, the first trauma that gives life to all future traumas.
